A time before this time

It's so strange when the day before, the week before, or even in the last hour, you learned something new, let's say for example, a word you never knew of before.  And then, still remembering that word's meaning, you read it in a piece of literature, or maybe heard it used on the television, and you think weird, if I wouldn't have discovered the meaning of that word like two seconds ago, then I wouldn't have known what that whole discussion was about...fate?  Weird how one little thing can change so much.

I've also decided, that no matter what it is about you that you dislike, whether it be a strange qwerk (sp?) or even an illness (though this is very sad, and I have no idea), it only makes you, you.  If it wasn't for that thing about you, you wouldn't be you, and you wouldn't be unique, and you wouldn't think the way do, and you wouldn't make the discoveries that you do.  I guess that we all just have to come to the point where we accept ourselves for who we are.  And search, just search.  And try to find whatever it is in your heart that you are looking for.